I’ve worked quite a few jobs since entering the workforce in my teens.
From fast food, to retail, to banking. And now public radio.
While all these jobs were in different industries, I had one common experience while working them: Restlessness.
Every job I’ve had, no matter how much I made, how much I loved it, or how great my co-workers, I’ve always become stir crazy after about a year.
This doesn’t mean I quit, though. But staying at jobs that I wasn’t passionate about meant that my performance faltered. I would see people advancing in ways that I simultaneously envied, but also didn’t envy because I knew the job no longer served me.
The difference between myself and those moving up around me has always been passion.
Looking back, I now realize it was because of all the things I’ve done, I’ve never been in my calling.
My life has changed so much over the past year and a half.
At the beginning of 2017 I embarked on a journey to improve my mental health after a lifetime of anxiety and depression.
I also (very apprehensively) made the decision to share this journey in a blog. And Socially Awkward Mom was born.
Since then, I have met so many amazing people and have shared my story through my posts and more recently in person at events.
A year ago, I couldn’t have imagined getting up in front of audiences and speaking – let alone sharing such vulnerable pieces of myself.
But now, I can’t imagine not doing it.
Every time I share my story…Every time someone tells me how much I’ve helped them…Every time I feel the adrenaline from publishing a post or doing a speaking engagement. These are the moments I feel the passion I’ve been seeking all along.
The funny thing about finding your calling is that I think most people feel like if they haven’t found theirs by a certain age, or at the same time as their peers…that they never will.
My life is a testament to the fact that sometimes you fall into your calling completely by accident.
Sometimes it comes after tons of life experience. After you’ve made tons of mistakes and worked jobs that you hated. Then one day, you suddenly find yourself working as a mental health advocate – at least in my case.
I think it’s because life needs to prepare you and give you the tools to handle what you’re about to experience.
And trust me, once your calling arrives, you’ll realize you’re not late to the game. On the contrary, you’re right on time.
So, keep searching and waiting patiently for your calling. No matter how long or arduous the journey.
No matter how scary or unfamiliar it is when you finally get there.